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Setsuna really had no idea when a half an hour was, so he just went right outside like Kira told him to as soon as he got Kira's last reply.

The whole suggestion of a talk was never a good one, so the kid was on edge, no matter what Kira said. Hands in his pockets, he glowered at the world in general waiting for Kira to show up and explain whatever this was about.

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"I don't care about the announcement," Setsuna said, clearly exasperated. "I just want to make sure Sara doesn't blow up about it." Why was that so hard to understand.

As for something bothering him the kid sighed and his eyes trailed away from Kira. "Nothing's wrong. If that's all you wanted to talk about, you can just settle your fears." Setsuna pulled away from the wall he had been leaning against and considered taking a walk to just think things over.

It wasn't a complete lie -- there wasn't anything severely wrong with the kid. He was just torn and confused.

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"Good. Thanks," Setsuna said, only to realize something else and point out, "But we already agreed on that. It's not like you had to repeat it."

"I don't feel guilty about it!" Setsuna sputtered out, looking at Kira this time. "I just have no idea why you felt like you had tell me not to worry and that you weren't going to do anything with them. I DON'T CARE IF YOU DO!" Setsuna felt he had to shout the last part, because maybe if he said it enough times he'd start to believe it.

When Kira hit on the truth, Setsuna's face went a bit red as he spat out, "Fuck you," and started to walk off again. He didn't want Kira to know, because he didn't want Kira worrying over it. Worse. He didn't want Sara realizing or finding out about it. It wasn't fair to her, and he couldn't feel comfortable like this.

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Wide-eyed, Setsuna turned to Kira and stared for a moment before he -- far more quietly -- asked, "Why are you sorry? You haven't really done anything. I just...." The kid stopped to run a hand through his hair.

"Look, I don't have problems with you moving on. I'm not trying to force it on you, either. I...." His hand stopped in his hair and started to grip tightly, nails digging into his scalp. This was hard -- Setsuna wanted it to be simple.

A bit softer: "I'm not mad at you. You haven't done anything."

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Looking confused, contrite and frustrated all at once, Setsuna nodded his head and shoved his hands in his pockets. He stood by Kira then, waiting for Kira to lead, because Setsuna didn't trust himself to speak, and didn't know where to start.

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Setsuna found that desire currently snuffed out by his dislike of the situation. Strangely enough.

"No thanks, Senpai. I wouldn't mind being drunk, though. Sara probably wouldn't like that," Setsuna said, giving a mild smile at the end. He wasn't going to stop just because Sara disliked something, but he did take her protests to heart, and had lessened his negatives activities with Sara in mind.

The arm was all but ignored. Not much to be done with it anyway, and it was welcome to stay right where it was, friendly and warm, and so very much Kira.

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Speaking of which, Setsuna suddenly wished she was there with him. Maybe that was silly, because they saw each other every day, but he missed Sara right then.

When Kira didn't finish, Setsuna asked, "Know what?" He was pretty sure he was ready for whatever might come next, from serious to a joke.

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Lost on how this pertained to the original conversation, Setsuna asked, bluntly, "Why are you telling me this?" then quickly backtracked to add, "I mean, it's nice and all, but if you just called me out here to say that it's not necessary. I'm not worried what you think of us. I know you're okay with things. You've said it before, and I believed you."

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"There's nothing to vent about," Setsuna said, flatly. What could he say? He couldn't claim Kira as his. And he didn't know exactly what Kira wanted.... If Kira wanted to move on, somehow Setsuna felt that would make things easier. He could easily get behind that and support Kira with whomever made the elder teen happy. But clearly it wasn't meant to be that simple.

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Well, damn. But he was trying so hard to fool Kira from the get-go. Fuck it.

"There isn't anything to vent about, though," Setsuna insisted. There wasn't.

As for Kira's Disneyland crack, Setsuna finally smiled and let himself get lost in that, leaving his worries behind for a moment.

"Your dad never took you? With all his money and stuff I'd think he would.... Oh, but then you would have just been a brat and stayed inside the whole time you guys were there, huh?"

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"Damn," Setsuna muttered. What followed was a sigh, then a not so serious, but maybe slightly serious, question of, "How did that man not beat the hell out of you at least once? He really should be given saint hood when he dies. I mean that."

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Setsuna tried, very hard, to imagine the elder Kira losing his temper, but it just made his brain break. Well, okay, he had heard him yelling with Kira on occasion, but the man still seemed very even tempered.

Catching Kira's expression, Setsuna leaned against him and softly said, "You really didn't understand what you were getting into, did you, Senpai? You're very lovable, anyhow."

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Setsuna leaned into Kira's touch, enjoying the affection like a cat might.

"Do you understand better now what kind of love that is? How strong it is?" Setsuna ventured to ask. Even if he couldn't convince Kira to stop trying something so foolish, he could find out if Kira understood.... And they could keep being idiots together.

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"What? How could I tell anyone that without explaining what you are first?" Setsuna asked with a laugh. "I think your secret is pretty damn safe with me."

Setsuna seemed to enjoy the petting, for a moment, and he was, but he found himself feeling winded. Well...Duzell had told him to take it easy the first couple of days, and it here was only one after, and he was taking this long walk with Kira.

"Senpai...can we rest for a bit?" Setsuna asked suddenly. He didn't care if it was like him or not, he wanted to sit down for a moment and get some juice. Or doughnuts. Or Ice cream. Anything with sugar in it might be nice.

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Setsuna frowned and glared at Kira's persistence. Tenacity was supposed to be Setsuna's specialization, damn it!

"Author Elite...I guess Cayce meant that as the entity that brought us here -- like a god," Setsuna hazarded a guess, his eyes definitely not meeting Kira's now. When Kira asked for the last time, Setsuna exploded with an angry response of, "Well, I'm not glad! Our writer is a fucking sadist!" instead of an answer.

In fact, Setsuna wanted to get up now, because he dreaded telling Kira about this so much. Suddenly he considered the worst Kira would really do is maybe call him an idiot and/or demand he stop and try to stalk the blood sessions, and Setuna could handle that, couldn't he?

Besides, Kira sort of deserved to know.

Defeated, Setsuna sighed and leaned over again, head in his hands. "If I tell you, do you promise not to freak out?"

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"Well, didn't you notice how I didn't come in until late last night?" the blond started with that. Let this be a guessing game. Let it get dragged out. That was the best route, Setsuna felt.

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Setsuna's eyes widened -- this wasn't going well, was it?

A bit panicky himself, the kid tried to repair his words with, "Well, it's not quite like that. I just fell asleep in this restaurant...." And he couldn't get himself to form words beyond that, waiting to make certain Kira remained calm after that -- or stopped thinking someone did something to an unwilling Setsuna.

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"It's this restaurant located in Space Mountain," Setsuna answered, looking sheepish for a moment. "Nothing happened after I fell asleep." Setsuna almost laughed at that. "I fell asleep because I let this vampire take some of my blood."

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"Gah!" Annoyed, Setsuna narrowed his eyes at Kira, and in an exasperated tone, clearly -- and loudly -- said, "Of course I'm okay! I'm standing and walking and talking, aren't I?" That caused him to break off sheepishly as he looked down at the apple juice and amended himself with, "I mean...well...we were walking earlier."

Setsuna looked briefly at the hand, but did nothing to brush it away, in fact, he scooted a bit closer on the seat to Kira.

"And I let him take it because Sara told me about him, and I got concerned. I wrote to him and asked if he had any idea what he was going to do when he was hungry for blood, and he didn't. I figured that him getting a constant source was better than him going insane with hunger and attacking who knows who," Setsuna explained, calmly as he could -- but some part of his wavering voice gave away how much the thought of some people being attacked scared the blond. "It just made sense, you know? I told him as long as he didn't screw me over, I'd give him blood when he needed it. I figured if he tried to go too far the park would make sure I didn't die. So I was safe."

As for how much.... Setsuna's eyes studied the apple juice carefully. "I couldn't control how much he took, you know. I don't know how much he needs to sustain himself, either. And I'm okay. It's not something to worry over. If I collapsed or something I could understand the concern." He didn't want to admit to Kira Duzell had confessed he took too much.

"He's a very polite vampire. Very courteous and very concerned for my well being in all of this. He got me soda and some sugar stuff that was really good. He even let me lean my head on his cape, so you don't need to worry he's going to do something bad to me. He's not like that. And if he fucked up with me he'd lose a definite meal ticket, and who wants to do that? Isn't it better to know where your next meal is coming from?" the blond asked, so earnestly.

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"She met him when he arrived," Setsuna explained, because it was completely okay to hang around anyone if they had just arrived -- or Setsuna seemed to think so. "She didn't sound very convinced he was a vampire, though." At least, she hadn't at the time.

Setsuna leaned into Kira's hug, greedily snuggling into the warmth of Kira's body -- never mind it was pretty warm outside to start with.

As for Kira's spoken desire to tag along, though, Setsuna made an annoyed grunt before telling Kira, "Senpai, how do know how much is too much? I had no way of telling, and Duzell said he was sorry for it. He probably won't do it again."

He looked taken aback by the compliment of bravery, then looked pleased, but by the end of it all Setsuna just looked puzzled. "Well, it's not like I was going to ask someone else about it when it was my idea. It doesn't seem fair, or right. But if you're interested in giving blood instead, then you'll have to talk to Duzell about it. I mean...I don't know if demon blood in the body of someone else is substantial, you know? It might be, it might not be. It might even be better than mine. We'll have to ask Duzell if he's okay with you taking my place, then maybe offer him a free sample?" Setsuna suggested to Kira -- hey, it wouldn't hurt to ask.

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Clearly, by the way Setsuna stiffened and glared at Kira as he shouted out, "I am not pale and weak!" Kira had hit a nerve. "Yeah, he took a bit too much, but that's going overboard, Senpai. And actually...." The kid calmed down as embarrassment hit him and his cheeks turned a slight pink color. "I meant, you wouldn't know when he's had enough. I wasn't thinking about when he had taken too much from me."

He chided himself for not figuring out that's what Kira meant sooner, feeling terribly foolish.

As for the demon blood.... "Right. Well, when he next writes to me for blood, I'll ask him about it then, okay? If he doesn't know, then we'll both go out there for a sampling." And Setsuna would be there as back up in case Duzell didn't find demon blood satisfactory.

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"I'm not arguing that you should let him," Setsuna sputtered out, confused.

When Kira consented to Setsuna's idea, the kid decided, "So this conversation is over, then?"

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Setsuna shook his head. "No. I don't hide shit, unless I feel like I have to. You know that, Senpai," Setsuna insisted at once. Well, there was the fact River and Nana had disappeared too, but Setsuna was trying not to focus on those things.

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Setsuna put an arm around Kira's shoulders, after, and squeezed him affectionately in return.

"I just told you -- we need to wait for him to contact us. It'll probably be a month or so. He said he can go a while without blood."

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Considering Kira's actions, Setsuna leaned against Kira in return, and was the one to ask, "Are you okay?" this time.

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